Behind the blackness of my eyes

Behind the blackness of my eyes
Is where the pain and sadness lies
It's been a year since you died
Yet only a minute since I've cried

You were there for me through thick and thin
You helped me find the true me within
You believed in me even when others gave in
You gave me a safe place to begin

I'm trying to forgive myself for all I did wrong
I'm trying my hardest to stay strong
Somedays I feel like nothing is right
But you still give me strength to fight

Our relationship wasn't perfect
But it doesn't matter once I reflect
I try to remember all the good things
Those are what tugs at my heart strings

You were the best mom I could've ever had
You always knew what to do when I went mad
You were right there by my side
You always knew the right words to guide

On the one year anniversary of you death
I must stop and take a long, deep breath
And remember you are still right here next to me
Whispering you love me and to be the best I can be